I love the days when I have perfect Instagram ready messy bun. If you are a mom right now you probably know what I’m talking about. Some days I can ‘throw my hair up’ and I look like the supposedly ‘frazzled mom’ on Facebook meme’s, Instagram posts, and twitter feeds. Also, if you are a mom right now you know that if you have an Instagram ready bun you probably are not overly frazzled. That bun takes time.
The actual messy pony tail comes out when I have been cleaning poop smears off of the bathroom cabinets, picking up puppy poop, feeling icky because I have been eating things that taste oh so good but are oh so bad for me. The non-Instagram bun comes out when I’m feeling sorry for myself during the middle of the spring because I haven’t eaten supper with an adult in 3 weeks.
Those messy buns can represent our lives. It is trendy right now to ‘be real’. But let’s face it. We are never going to be completely real on the internet. Even if we wanted to we can’t give people a full picture of our lives. And we don’t really want to. I don’t know that it would be healthy to purge all of our junk onto the internet. We post pictures of our messy kitchens and dirty laundry. I don’t post a video of me yelling at the kids because its 5:30 and I’m hungry and they are loud. I don’t show pictures of my disgusted face when my two year old asks me to snuggle him. I haven’t even had that hard of a day I just want to do my own thing and not sit on the couch. I don’t want to show people just how pervasive my selfishness is. I’ve also noticed that even a picture of the garbage in our lives doesn’t really capture the ick of it all.
There is an actual messy bun that exists and the messy bun that we take the time to perfect. Just like in life. There is our actual messy lives and then there is the ‘mess’ that we show to others. The mess that we show to others takes time to prepare just like the Instagram messy bun does.
The question I have to ask myself is not ‘how do I show my authentic self on social media’? I do not need to worship at the altar of others opinions or social media. I’m not saying I don’t because I do. I really want people to like me.
I don’t even know if I can come up with a question to ask myself. What I need to do is look at my life in the light of what I should be doing. WARNING: It’s not going to be pretty. Examining our lives in light of the law of God is going to hurt.
BUT we can do it.
We should do it.
Confession is a healthy thing.
We can do it not because we are going to figure out how to fix it all. Not because we are sure the people around us will forgive us. Not because there will be no suffering if we confess. Not because it will make people like us more.
We can do it because the one we should be worshiping already knows and has already forgiven and forgotten. We can be open and genuine about our sin with the people we need to be open and genuine about our sin with because our sin is already known, forgiven, and forgotten by God. All the sorrow that our sins have created in our lives are known, forgiven, and forgotten by God.
Lutheran Service Book # 611
He came to earth knowing he would take all of our junk to the cross with him. He walked around on this earth suffering and knowing all the sorrows that we experiance. He knows our sin and sorrows because he lived on the same earth you are living right now. He hung on a cross to die for all the ways we wrong him and those around us.
The book of Hebrews tell us about our Jesus our high priest.